ENGAGED!!!!

Yeah, so that is me now. I am engaged. I am what I never really thought I would be. Caged in...Promised for life, that sort of thing. I used to stick my nose up at that sort of behavior. I used to think it was silly to be engaged in University, that only freaks did that. Now that I am engaged, I guess you could say that I have changed my tune.

I have realized that the reason I was so against it was because I was so afraid that it was not going to happen. So that is why I was constantly undermining people who were engaged. Being someone's fiance brings about a sort of "ahhhhhhhhhh...." or a sigh that settles all of the issues that were in a relationship. And I don't mean fights that happened 2 days, 2 weeks or 2 months ago. I was dwelling on the things that happened 2 or 3 years ago, unable to get them out of my head.

I feel now that it was silly to dwell on them because I now understand that my fiance actually wants to be with me. And that is kind of nice. And, after soul searching, I came to the same conclusion. There is no one in this world that could ever get along with me as well as he can. It is nice to have that stability.

The only weird thing is that it is making me feel as though I have to grow up and get older. That is something that I feel even now as I write this. Instead of thinking about the next time I will spend silly amounts of money on clothes, I am thinking about the silly amount of money I will spend on my dress.

It is crazy how you grow up, and as I said, I am on a steep learning curve for the next few years. Needless to say, I am extremely happy and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to snag a guy like Tom.