Ugh (That's all I've got)....

I love how I give up so easily. To my dismay and utter disappointment, the jobs that I was applying for at Chalk River are now taken down and, therefore, by extrapolation, are filled. So that means that I did not get them and I am sucking majorly at the moment.

I guess it is a big blow to the gut and ego. So, this is something that I have to deal with. Really, the thing that is freaking me out the most is that I need a job to pay for my medication. I need the medication, so I need the job and money to pay for it. There is no real floating time for me. I have to make sure that I have something lined up, or else.

So I guess that is why I am freaking out. I need that stability because without it I freak out.

Yuck.

And that's that.