So Tired I am MAKING myself SICK!!

In all honesty right now, I feel like "the dog's breakfast." And, yes, I stole that from the grandparents. I am to the point now that I am so incredibly overtired and so exhausted that it is making me feel ill. And not just any old ill, I am consistently nauseous and my head is dizzy. Or I feel like I am spinning around the room as I am writing this.

Effectively, one would recommend sleep to remedy this. However, since I have not been getting this thing everyone calls "sleep," I am slowly starting to fail. And I don't mean classes, but I mean concentration-wise and conversation-wise and all of that stuff. So, it is hard for me to type this, as I am to the point, I have no idea what I am saying by the time I finish the sentence. So, fun stuff.

Oh, and I think I am reacting to my CT Bone scan. They injected me with radiation, and now my arm with the injection in it is killing me, I am getting chest pains, my bones are aching, it hurts when I type, walk, do anything, I can't keep food down because of the nausea and I have had a migraine for 3 days. I googled the scan, and it said that there are no side effects but with how I am feeling, I am not sure. After the test, my Crohn's went nuts! Attack after attack after attack, and then once that was done, my chest started to tighten. So, the predicament is do I go to health services and get them to tell me I am crazy once again because I feel symptoms. I am "oversensitive" and I tell them I have a weakend immune system, so this stuff really knocks me out....well, I guess I will see how I am feeling tomorrow. The trend lately is that I am getting worse, so we shall see how it goes. And now, changing to something happier, like the future.

I am almost done this thing they call school and I will be off to the wonderful world of work. That makes me excited because I am going to begin a new chapter in my life. And this new chapter fully includes Thomas, yay!, as well as all of the other dreams that I have been thinking about over the years (dogs, gardens, vacations, etc...). The Tom and Chrissy life plan will be revving into 6th gear (that car reference was purely for Tom....).

But, I have to get my head into reality and I have to focus on what I have at hand: nausea and stress and dizziness...not as much fun, I can vouch for this! In sadder news, Tom knew the Cpl that died in Afghanistan. He was in the control office the morning before he was killed. Tom talked to him that morning, so I think this is hitting him a little hard. The WO had just gotten back from Canada and from visiting his family.

Man, if that was Tom, I don't know what I would do. I think freak out!!! Or die a little myself.

I feel so much sympathy for those families and my thoughts are with them. I think when something like this happens, it levels you and grounds you and makes you realize that your problems really are not that bad. But then people tell me what I have to go through is bad.

I guess it is all relative.