Monday, February 06, 2006

Starving as a Female in this World...


I am a successful female currently struggling in a man's world. That is my viewpoint at the current moment. I am in Chemical Engineering @ University of Waterloo. I do fairly well in my courses and I am working for a professor this term. You think that would be a good thing, but unfortunately, being good at something as a female in a world generally ruled by testosterone is more of a hindrance than a blessing.

Currently, I am venomously hated at my work establishment. Not by my co-workers, not by my bosses, not by the other professors in the building. It is my peers that have turned against me. Why would they do this? It comes down to a little green monster commonly called jealousy. The big poppa of this whole thing is a guy whom I have been continually bashing heads with since I can remember.

I would not sleep with him. I would not date him. I wouldn't even give him a once-over. From this rejection doth his fury thrive. He is so detested by me that through his leacherous speech, lies have embedded themselves into others ears, and these others have decided to stop speaking to me. As sad as it is, I live in an environment that operates at the grade 4 level.

All I can say is that I am truly saddened by this experience and it has left a very sour taste in my mouth. All of these people that I met before they turned on me seemed sweet and kind. It is funny what a small dose of lies can do to a person's perception of another. I just hope that I do not leave this mess with a heavy heart and a weakened spirit.



1 comment:

Jill said...

Christina,

First off, I’m sorry to hear this. I’m not completely sure who you’re talking about, but there are a few people that I think it might be. But that doesn’t really matter.

Honestly, I really hope you don’t take what these people are doing to heart too much. You’re an amazing person, and I don’t just mean the usual smart, nice, pretty way (although those are all true.) You’re one of those people who, if I pass you, you’ll always stop to say a few words. You’re tough – you’ll stick up for what you truly believe in, even if others disagree. You’ve got the self-confidence and the drive, and you stick to things, even though it’s not always easy. And it’s these things, especially b/c you’ve been through a lot of other crap, that will make you successful. It’s true, it is difficult to succeed in this field, and even more so for females. But I hope you won’t let a few jerks discourage you…I think the best revenge you can get is to not let them get to you, and you continue to succeed, and that’ll show them!

*hugs*
Jill